I started this blog two years ago as something I had always wanted to try. I didn’t expect much out of it, but I thought I should actually create a blog instead of just always talking about one.
Two years ago I was in my senior year in high school. My parents still had their business and my dog still had two good knees. I wanted to be a “historical journalist” or “professor” or “museum curator” (really I had no idea, but I knew my preferred areas). I didn’t know that my senior prom would get rained out, or that my mom would be diagnosed with cancer.
I didn’t know that I would soon be working at least two jobs at almost any given time. I didn’t know that I would start a Friends marathon, or that I would be absolutely pissed at the How I Met Your Mother finale.
Two years ago, my life was very different. I was obsessed with trying to get over the guy who would later become Vincent. I was working with my class to try to create and produce an entire show. I was worrying about my prom dress being ready on time. I was thinking about moving to Halifax.
My life has completely changed in the last two years. My parents are working different jobs and seem really happy. I’ve been to concerts, and can dance around in my prom dress whenever I please. My mom’s cancer was cleared after a week of radiation treatment.
I’ve learned to cope with the HIMYM finale. I’m working a full-time and part-time job at the moment. My sister is turning 12 in a couple of weeks.
I’m studying English Literature now, and most importantly I know what I want to be when I’m older. I want to be a writer.
That seems obvious, given the nature of my blog, but without this space to create and experiment I wouldn’t have known that I could do this. I wouldn’t know that I like pushing the boundaries of what is socially acceptable, or what people expect from me. I wouldn’t have known that I really like revenge stories and using sex to show female power through character like Liviana. Without this blog I would still be writing crappy novels with no clear ending because I don’t like planning. I would still be writing children’s books (actually I do miss those- maybe I’ll write another one soon).
This blog- and my readers- has been a huge outlet for my writing, creativity and experimentation. And for that I thank you.
Without this blog , I don’t think I would have gotten through all the hard times . This blog taught me that it’s okay to write what I want- people will still read it if it’s shared. I got some great feedback on stories that were really nerve-wrecking to share. Everything that you guys have done has really helped. Thank you!
It really pains me to say this, but I think it might be time for me to say bye. Or sorta say goodbye.
The thing is, I want to keep writing and blogging and interacting with you all. But I also want to start entering my work in contests and submitting to literary magazines- and I can’t do that when I’m always publishing it here first. I want to keep you updated in my life, and I want to share exciting things with you- but those things can’t be my writing. Not right now at least.
I’m going to say farewell, but it doesn’t really mean I won’t be returning, it just means my stories won’t be returning.
I’d love to keep doing pieces about my writing process and character development – if you’d let me!